He's 6 years old now. Still does not eat much unless something he really like, such as roti jala, nasi sup, bihun sup, roti cokelat, mm thats about it. He can now read quite smoothly Bahasa but still struggling with English. Way better than I used to be at the same age. Now learning kidsconomics(how to appreciate money), just to make sure he knows how to buy things later when he turns 7 and go to public school. Still an accident prone, still fighting with his sister. And he now knows how to demand. His latest demand is "Pa, nak rumah ada tangga".
With her high note voice, she is the most noticeable among the three. And she's excellent in getting things she wants, especially for a bottle of milk. At 10 rpm(request per minute), anyone will surrender. On top of that, she does not care what situation you are in. Being ask to prepare a milk while taking bath is a common thing for me. Dear kid no 2, I hope you will become a great Project Manager some day.
Started moving around, not yet a crawler. He caused me a back pain couple of times. At the blue corner, aged 8 months, weighing about 10kg, here is kid no 3. A bit complicated, he drinks with her mama, but wants me to put him to sleep. So like any other father, usually I fall asleep as well. Fell off the bed once, thank God, it's nothing serious. Your mama and I have been waiting anxiously for you to change your status to toddler.
If you're reading this, that's good. It means now you can read English. I just want to let you know, it is a blessing to have you all as my children. As a father, I'm not always being able to furnish your kid's life with life material. At this point of time, I'm working hard to get us all a descent house we can spend our precious time together. But I want you to remember, a house is not yet a home. A house is where the body is. And a home is where the heart is. Go ahead, grow up and become a good Muslim. I want nothing more from you, just keep the memory close to your heart since that is the thing that make me stronger each day. I love you and your mom very much.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Posted by yoe at 7/22/2010 02:44:00 PM
Friday, February 12, 2010
In solaris, how can you tell which process is binding to certain port? Given a limited user privilege, and no lsof available. Please let me know if you have the answer. In the meantime, I have to stick with the script written by Lubos Kosco:
# Get the process which listens on port
# $1 is the port we are looking for
if [ $# -lt 1 ]
echo "Please provide a port number parameter for this script"
echo "e.g. $0 22"
echo "Greping for your port, please be patient (CTRL+C breaks) ... "
for i in `ls /proc`
pfiles $i | grep AF_INET | grep $1
if [ $? -eq 0 ]
echo Is owned by pid $i
The original page is here. Thanks Lubos and thanks google.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
I'm blogging today(during lunch time of course), because I'm quite free compared to last week, and weeks before that. By the way, I just received a confirmation letter for my position as System Integrator. Thank God(reads Allah) for that.
Salary - Money paid to an employee for regular work performed that is supposed to reflect the true value of the employee to the company, but more often resembles a bad joke - urban dictionary.
Did I ever mentioned that this is the first time I feel overpaid(it is NOT that high! or is it because I always get less? hu hu). Before this, even though I never cried it out loud, I always that the company did not pay me as much as I work. My principle is quite simple actually, and I always give the same answer during any job interview. You give me something, then I'll give you something, if not more. Usually it turns out the other way around. Regardless of how lazy I am, or how late I went home, there's always "something" at the end of the month. But most people including me, just like to nag around that the company should pay me this much or this much, although everything should be settled right after they step into the company. We always want more aren't we?
But things a bit different for me now. Going back early is like a crime, at least for me (One more reason is that the office hour officially start at 10). Somehow I just feel unfair to the company, looking at how much they paid to get me to work. And I repeat, its not that high, really. I got bunch of friends who earn more than me, and I respect that. I dont have any formula to calculate the effort I put in against the salary I get. One of the reason I feel this way, most probably because I have been jobless for 3 months before I got this job. It is hard to appreciate something until it is no longer in your possession. Remembering the struggling my family had to go through, makes the appreciation towards the 'rezeki' is higher, and thank God(always reads Allah) for that. And I hope the company feel the same way too.
Rasulullah (PBUH) said(a hadith that people tend to overlook):
“Make the most of five things before five others: life before death, health before sickness, free time before becoming busy, youth before old age, and wealth before poverty.” (Saheeh al-Jaami’)
And yes, you'll never appreciate life until you're dead, but then, it might be a bit too late.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Hidup kurniaan Allah. Akal kurniaan Allah. Kita pikirla sendirik!
Di akhbar baik, tv baik, blog baik, sumenya sibuk membincangkan isu penggunaan nama Allah. Nak membuat ulasan ilmiah tentang isu tersebut, jauh sekali memandangkan terhadnya ilmu di dada, namun kemampuan akal kurnian Allah membuatkan aku gembira membaca ulasan2 ilmiah di internet. Blog2 seperti Khalid Samad, Zulkifli Noordin, Dr Maza, Uztaz Zaharuddin, Ustaz Nasrudin, Faisal Tehrani etc amatlah menyegarkan untuk menghilangkan kehausan ilmu di hati. Walaupun ada yang diikuti oleh komen2 kurang ilmiah, tapi aku anggap benda tu macam habuk2 teh je la. Yang penting, isi kena ada. Kalu tak, nak baca pun malas.
Setiap benda ada hikmahnya, ada adik dan kakak bertahun tak bertegur sapa. Anak sedara kawin pun tak datang. Bila umur makin mendaki, sakit pun menjenguk usia. Hari ni dah kembali kunjung mengunjung. Orang tua sabar dan tawakkal menghadapi ujian bila nikmat kesihatan ditarik balik, anak-anak seperti aku yang terlebih risau, tapi terubat hati memikirkan hikmah dari ujian - merapatkan silaturrahim, alhamdulillah.
Berbalik kepada isu terhangat awal 2010, salah satu hikmahnya, ramai yang dok google cari pengertian Allah yang sebenar, walaupun sepatutnya sebagai seorang Islam, benda ni yang paling core kat hati tuh! Alhamdulillah syukur bagi yang mencari. Yang protest pun, protestlah, tapi janganlah takat tercegat pegang poster. Tapi, nanti katakan lah kebenaran guna Allah tu dapat ditarik balik(alhamdulillah), so what's next wahai protester-protester? Senyap balik sampai ada isu kontroversi terbaru? Sebelum Bible kat mesia tak guna nama Allah pun lagi, dah ramai muda-mudi Islam ni mesia hidup tak macam orang Islam. Nak protest bagus(kalu tak kena sembur), tapi tindakan susulan nak kena ada bai. Dok asyik protest takut orang Islam terjebak dengan dakyah kristian, tapi pada masa yang sama takde lak dihadkan hiburan or benda-benda kurang ilmiah di kalangan muda-mudi. Serbu sarang maksiat kat sini, kat sana terbukak. Serbu kat sana, kat sini dah bayar compound, bleh bukak balik. Kesian kat abang2/akak2 yang pegi serbu. Penat bai! Tapi takpelah, kalu ikhlas, bukan gaji je dapat, insyallah pahala pun lumayan. Kat tv lak, terlalu banyak hiburan tak ilmiah. Dok sebok gossip artis. Si A nak kat si B. Si B tak layan. Si A merajuk kat si C. Si b jeles. Me-nyamp-pah. Si-ti jugak bagus sket dah start pakai tudung separa. Adalah perubahan positif. Best gak membebel ni kan, no wonder la pompuan suka. Macam2 cadangan boleh diusulkan, tapi eloklah aku baiki diri aku. Pastu keluarga dan seterusnya masyarakat.
Oleh itu, berpandukan tema "Hidup di dunia adalah titisan di hujung jari, di mana akhirat itulah lautan", azam tahun baru(azam lama ni actually),:
1. Aku nak selalu gi semayang kat surau sambil dengar majlis ilmu
2. Aku nak banyakkan baca Al-Quran
3. Aku nak kutip ilmu di mana saja, (by the way, Halaqah lepas, ustaz tu bitau suruh amalkan dua Sod, Sobar and Solat)
4. Nak merasa dok rumah sendiri
5. Akan ditambah, bila dah boleh istaqamah dgn yang di atas,
Sahabat yang baik, adalah sahabat yang menegur bila kita lakukan kesilapan. Oleh itu, aku menyeru, debiklah aku wahai sahabat2 sekalian sekiranya korang nampak aku buat silap dalam hidup beragama.
Ya Allah, cukuplah bagiku ya Allah(yang menolong dan memeliharaku), tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah melainkan Dia, kepadaNya aku berserah diri, dan Dialah Yang Mempunyai Arasy Yang Besar.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Job Status: Vacant
Total Applications: 7
Priority Applications: 0
Under Consideration: 1
My Application: Hired
Applied On: 16 Jun 2009
Viewed: 4 times
Special thanks to my wife, friends and relatives for your support during the hard time.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri. Please forgive all my wrongdoings. I'm leaving. I'll be leaving for my hometown tomorrow. My mind beats me. He arrived there last week. So now I seem mindless try to finish some errands before tomorrow. Just got a bad news 2 days ago. My son has to undergo the 2nd operation after raya. Well, well..
*flashback*Last month, he went through the first one. The operation was about to get rid of small but infectious lump between his chin and his neck. I dont know the medical term for it nor I know what caused it. But I do know that it is getting harder, bigger and too painful for Nabil.
So, one morning, we checked in into a ward. The operation was supposed to be in the afternoon, so Nabil has been denied food and drink. I'm trying hard to divert his attention by playing or watching tv, while waiting. The Wonderpets just ended, meaning it's already 3pm, but we patiently waited for no avail. Then a nurse told us that the pediatric surgeon was handling some emergency case, so we have to expect some delay. I really didnt mind as he should know his priority better. 2 hours later, we had been brought to a counter outside the Operation Theatre(OT).
Nabil already felt the uneasiness. He didnt want to get hold nor seated. A few minutes later, one huge guy came out from the OT. He's the anesthesia specialist. We chatted for a while before he carried Nabil away from us. Nabil just could not stop screaming, and my wife could not stop crying. Last time he screamed, was at PASTI pre-school. Back then, my wife cried too. Now, while knowing risk was low, I still have to comfort her telling everything is gonna be ok. About 20 mins later, a nurse called us into the pre/post operation room as Nabil already started screaming in pain, after he woke up. We gently hold and persuaded him until we were back at the room. The misery didnt end there. He had to wait at least 6 hours before he can touch any food or drink for the anesthetia effect went off. He sobbed and sobbed until he's too weak and my wife put him to sleep.
A month later, the wound has not cure itself. After numerous time going in/out for follow-ups, the condition persists. During last appointment, the doctor advised us to go for 2nd operation. Life is like a wheel, you got your ups and downs, people say. Now, I feel like being down, and the wheel is not spinning and stucked forever. Even though it is not a major operation, we still feel helpless. For the parents, it's the journey that's more painful. I respect and pray for families that have to go a far more critical situation than mine. Despite the insurance coverage issue (since I'm leaving the company), I hope everything will go smoothly this time. As for my son, I wont hint him about the operation until the last minute. I dont want him to have a spoiled holiday, although my wife and I are holding our back, smiling in disguise.
The reduced-oil-price is not going to make me feel any better. I feel too tired to wait, quite worried to start anew. Let's hope for the best. Let's hope for the wheel to start spinning. God willing. Once again, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, have a good journey with beloved family and drive safely.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Tanggal 16 Sept, 2008, di kala minda menyusuri blog dan berita terkini..menanti sesuatu..sekelumit perubahan..yang bakal menjadi tonggak negara..negara yang didalamnya keturunanku akan menumpang hidup..sementara menanti mati di bumi Allah.
Tapi dikejutkan pula dengan rekahan parti "engkau laksana bulan"..walaupun aku masih pasti ianya dapat di 'plaster' diperingkat atasan..kuharapkan tidak akan berakhir dengan kehancuran. Jika tidak, di mana lagi "silent communities" macam aku ni mau bersandar harap.
Masih terngiang-ngiang kata-kata Tok Guru, "..politik itu kotor, Islamlah yang menyucikannya.." Itulah antara asas yang terpacak dalam kepalaku bila cuba memahami cerita politik dalam negara. Walaupun aku hanya end-user(or shd I say end-voter) politik, aku tak suka diperkotak-katikkan, lebih-lebih lagi oleh parti politik kegemaranku. Walaupun aku memang lemah berhujah(even dengan diriku sendiri), tapi aku yakin barisan pemimpin dapat berhujah dengan sihat berteraskan ilmu dan pengalaman masing-masing.
Harapanku, biarlah diselesaikan secara berhikmah mengikut lunas2 Islam yang kita bawa. Selagi parti menjadi alat untuk Islam(dan bukannya parti memperalatkan Islam), selagi itulah sokonganku tidak bertepi.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
When was the last time you checked your Qibla. Thanks to Ibn Masud, now you can verify the Qibla everywhere you are connected. Utilizing the Google Map, I just can say "Thanks a bunch and Well Done". Just go to Qiblalocator.com for details.